Wednesday | October 19, 2005

Amuse Me

This was amusing to me.  Go ahead, try it out.  Google the phrase "[Your name] needs" and see what comes up.

Here's what Google thinks I need.

1.Amanda needs a mom in her corner with lots of time and attention to give to her.
2. Amanda needs to be rebuilt.
3. Amanda needs operater disk ownership.
4. Amanda needs to be loved.
5. Amanda needs a small config change.
6. Amanda needs gnutar?
7. Amanda needs changes to the network services and inetd configuration files.
8. Amanda needs a break.
9. Amanda needs to go peepee.
10. Amanda needs a serious love interest or must get involved in a serious journalistic story.
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Tuesday | October 18, 2005

Bllluuurrbbb

That was the sound of a movie reel coming to screeching halt, you know, like they do...

Anyway, I have not been a highly motivated blogger recently.  I'm not sure...it may still have something to do with that PlanetRock thing.  I don't know, though.  It might also have something to do with me not feeling like I have anything to blog about.  My life has been pretty slow lately.  I will admit, though, I am learning a lot.  I realized just tonight how much I am learning about patience and waiting on God's answers.  At this point in time, I am just not really sure about anything in my life, I really don't know what direction God is getting ready to take me in.  And he doesn't seem to be too excited about telling me just yet.  But I am coming to realize how important it is to wait, and not try to solve everything, or do everything on my own.  I just have to keep going with what God is doing with me right now, and wait for the answers I am looking for.  But I don't need them today, so I won't necessarily try to make them come today.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding.  Seek his will in all you do, and he will direct your paths.

Random Throwing It Out There Statement #1:  I am actually thinking about going on staff with the church.

Random Throwing It Out There Statement #2:  I am newly addicted to MySpace, a nice old-person alternative to Facebook.
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Tuesday | October 11, 2005

My Life

So, I don't know a whole lot about copyright laws, especially when it relates to blogs.  In fact, I suddenly wonder how much the world at large knows about copyright laws in relation to blogs.  But since Jackie posted very large portions of books are her blog, I am feeling confident in my decision to post an entire reading from "My Utmost for His Highest" by Oswald Chambers.  So here it is.  The best I can do at sharing what I have going on in my head right now.

"When He had heard therefore that he was sick, He abode two days in the same place where He was."   John 11:6

Has God trusted you with a silence that is big with meaning?  God's silences are His answers.  Think of those days of absolute silence in the home at Bethany!  Is there anything analogous to those days in your life?  Can God trust you like that, or are you still asking for a visible answer?  God will give you the blessings you ask if you will not go any further without them; but His silence is the sign that He is bringing you into a marvelous understanding of Himself.  Are you mourning before God because you have not had an audible response?  You will find that God has trusted you in the most intimate way possible, with an absolute silence, not of despair, but of pleasure, because He saw that you could stand a bigger revelation.  If God has given you a silence, praise Him, He is bringing you into the great run of His purposes.  The manifestation of the answer in time is a matter of God's sovereignty.  Time is nothing to God.  For a while you said - "I asked God to give me bread, and He gave me a stone."  He did not, and today you find He gave you the bread of life.

A wonderful thing about God's silence is that the contagion of His stillness gets into you and you become perfectly confident - "I know God has heard me."  His silence is the proof that He has.  As long as you have the idea that God will bless you in answer to prayer, He will do it, but He will never give you the grace of silence.  If Jesus Christ is bringing you into the understanding that prayer is for the glorifying of His Father, He will give you the first sign of His intimacy - silence.
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Sunday | October 09, 2005

Feeling the Wheels Stop Spinning

One of my closest friends got married this weekend.  Eryn was my roommate my freshman year at Iowa State.  Man, I had sort of forgotten how many amazing memories I have with that girl.  I don't get to see her very much anymore, since she's still in Ames and I'm in Iowa City.  But this weekend just brought back a flood of memories from our friendship.  Gosh, that girl has such a heart for God, and for people.  I have never met anyone that loves people the way Eryn does, or who is as in love with Jesus as Eryn is.  I didn't cry during the ceremony, I promise, I won't cry now.

On another note, I have found myself completely lost again in my grad school decision.  I really hope God has something in mind for me, and that He makes it pretty clear to me soon.  I'm not sure how much longer I can deal with this random wandering around.  I know my life must have some direction to it.  I am just still completely clueless as to what that direciton may be.

Brand new note: I have developed a plan to get Jesus to come back.  Ya know how when you are at a restaurant, and the waiter hasn't come to take your order yet, if you really have to pee, the longer you wait, the longer it takes for the waiter to come, and then the moment you walk away from the table to go to the bathroom, the waiter shows up?  Here's the plan: we get all the Christians in the world to go to the bathroom at the same exact time.  As this technique has proven itself throughout my lifetime, I believe it will prove true yet again.
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Tuesday | October 04, 2005

"Sorry"

That was in quotes because I was quoting the other 500 people who aplogize when they don't blog much.

I don't really have that much to say right now.

Not because I really don't have anything to say.  But because I have so very much to say.

The problem is, I love to share thoughts that have meaning, that someone can read and think, "Wow, those were good thoughts."  or, "Hmm, I really know what is happening in her life right now." or even, "Wow, that was not a waste of my time."  But then my new road block to blog-sharing is the fact that guys read this.  And now that I am on PlanetRock, not just guys, but a bunch of random guys I don't even know.  And I am just slightly hesitant to share the deepest thoughts, longings, and lessons of my heart, with guys I know, and then some other guys that I am not even yet aware of their existence.  So I am finding myself stuck.  Not sure where to go from here.  Maybe I am just ready to be done with my blog, maybe I am just ready to change the goal of my blog, maybe I am just ready to change the background color of my blog.  Whatever it is time for, only time will tell.  For now, a verse or three.

Psalm 34:8-10
Taste and see that the LORD is good.
       Oh, the joys of those who trust in him!
Let the LORD's people show him reverence,
       for those who honor him will have all they need.
Even strong young lions sometimes go hungry,
       but those who trust in the LORD will never lack any good thing.
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